I have officially announced the existence of this blog today. I don't know whether I should have done that, but I do know I don't have a lot of freedom when I blog there. Not with
someone's eyes watching.
Anyway, this week is cramped with tests, and maybe occasional common tests, which are still
tests. So freaking busy right now. I don't know how much longer this can go on. )))x Plus my mundane band life, non-existent social life and stagnant love life, I am at the most bottomest part of my life right now. ):
I don't know how to describe it, but lately my life has been like a sine graph, with large amplitudes and wavelengths, but tiny periods. Basically, it just means that there are a lot of things happening right now and they're all happening too soon and too fast. =\ I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
Despite all this chaos, I still find time to think about you. And honestly, I don't know if you're worth waiting or if you're just a waste of time. I won't harbour high hopes on you. I know can't afford to fall and disappoint myself again, cause I won't know how to put myself together.I want my fairy.
I'm back blogging here. Post title says all. (: Didn't know it was so long since I last updated here.
Not that anyone knows about it lol.
Feeling rather suckish lately. =\ I have soooooooooo many things to say and yet I can't really put it up in my Xanga blog account cause apparently,
someone still has access to it. *sigh*
I can't throw all my feelings out because you don't have the right to see it.
Its always because of you. And I will never show you that I'm weak because I'm not. I'll smile happily no matter how much I want to cry in the inside. That's how strong I am and that's the only part of me you'll ever get to see.Gahhh~~ Its been a long time since I had fun. Like,
REAL fun. If only I can have one day where I can forget about all my problems and just be myself. I don't have to pretend to be anyone or put up a fake smile for everyone. I want that day to come
soon. (=
I want to live in a world where dreams and fantasies can become reality. And I want to start believing in true love and fairies again. Fairy, please grant me happiness.
Only one person can make me smile right now. (: